Feel the heat/ Saturday, June 11, 2005
i miss all the
S/CLTs and
CLTs..
i miss
foxtrot 5..
i miss HQ...
i practically miss every moment of
spec course..
is onli 4 days course.. yup im sure that there is a bond in foxtrot 5..
everyone cooperate wif one another..
b4 i go to SPEC course.
i've been thinkin that "shit another torturing camp"
im gonna b independant cos everyone will be seperated.
yup thru enuff.. in foxtrot section1 there is onli one BV girl.
me..
in the whole foxtrot.. onli me a chinese female cadet..
i was so isolated..
yup.. in the end.. still.. made friend wif this PRCS girl.
i dunno her name... :(
didn ask for email or contact no. also.. LOL..
no time la...
onli gave someone my email add n my no. onli..
moreover is last min de lor..
cos already wan to book out le..
foxtrot 5 PC APC temporary PC and some S4..
aiya..lots of SirS.. all said things which were kinda touching..
erm... try to b hard.. bear my tears..
yup..
manage.. didn cry..
this is the very first time i can control my tears.
there is a obvious reason y i didn want to cry.
shouldnt b mention.
another reason is bcos.. specialist should b tough...
shouldn cry easily.. yup yup..
yup.. im gonna prove to my PC now that i have confidence.
im dying to go for
SSC..
in my mind i noe that is quite impossible..
i thought through about PC's story..
yup.. he tot he couldn go for SSC.. but in the end he make it thru.
but i juz cant find my own
confidence..
i noe myself that im not up to the standard.. so i shouldn wish much.
still i wan to go SSC...
cos that would practically the last course to attend le.
i dun see part Ds have any course to attend.
if i dun get to SSC, i think spec course was already the last course im goin.
next time goin HQ.. MAYB onli to accompany parts to go onli..
i really miss the moment that all spent together in HQ..
i learn lots of thing..
and im sure i will contribute to NCC from now..
i dun wan my PC to look down on me...
i wan to strive hard to go SSC..
nothin is impossible as long as i try..
*youdidnothingwrongbutijuzwanttoignoreyou
im thinking of you!
10:12 AM <3
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